ILLUMINATION (1996)


Candle light
Illuminate my wanting
As I sit denying what is happening to us
Fearful of confronting
Evidence of lying to myself, but what a fuss
Didn’t see the die already cast
Feeling like the first time at last

Neon light
Bright and unrelenting
Tenderly exposing all my tentative advances
Finally consenting
Feel the distance closing and I think what were the chances
Breathing just a little bit too fast
Feeling like the first time at last

How long
Had you been holding open the door
Would you have waited much more
Till I finally walked through
How wrong
Was I to wait until things were just right
Keep myself out of the light
Till I could show myself to you

Star light
Generously glowing
Confidently guiding my discovery and awe
Imperfections showing
Coming out of hiding to accept my every flaw
Doubts and hesitations in the past
Staring out at new horizons vast
Feeling like the first time at last
Feeling like the first time at last

A very early lyric and a deeply personal one.

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